Missed it again!

March 2008

This is a picture I took in March last year of Chloe holding her referral picture.  Our referralversary is actually on February 8th, but I missed it again this year.  Luckily my friend Laura is more on top of things than I am and she remembers.  I have also started missing our monthly Mama and Chloe anniversaries, which indicates a couple of things to me.  

First, I have stopped counting my life and Chloe’s in one-month increments.  Seems strange, but I think it’s an encouraging sign that things are going well and I’m not looking at life in those “survival” terms like I had to last year.  Each month we conquered together last year was one month closer to Chloe being done with night terrors, getting caught up on her nutrition, getting caught up on her physical development, getting caught up on her verbal development, and the two of us being one month further in our attachment journey.  We’ve been working more on reading books, singing songs, playing with toys, and generally hanging out like two best friends enjoying the good life together!  

 

one year later-still not looking at the camera

 

Second, while I’m relieved that I feel like I’ve moved out of survival mode and into enjoyment mode, it stresses me out a little bit.  I’m afraid I’m getting lax already on things I should really be paying attention to.  I should be doing more to uphold all the little mini-traditions I intended to start with Chloe.  You can’t just start up a tradition again after ignoring it for a year can you?  Oh well, Chloe’s staying with my parents tonight so as usual I’m spending my alone time worrying about what I’m doing wrong in my role as a mother!  Don’t worry, it wasn’t all this cheery tonight.  I made it to four different places I needed to run errands to in record time and have everything marked off my list for the week!  I’ve talked to the Princess already today and she doesn’t really seem to be missing me because she’s having too much fun with Grandma!

 

One more of my silly girl!